The Wildwater Walking Club

  The Wildwater Walking Club

  A Novel

  Claire Cook

  To women walking everywhere

  Contents

  Day 1

  132 Steps

  Day 2

  54 Steps

  Day 3

  28 Steps

  Day 4

  17 Steps

  Day 5

  11,464 Steps

  Day 6

  24 Steps

  Day 7

  5010 Steps

  Day 8

  6333 Steps

  Day 9

  6511 Steps

  Day 10

  7144 Steps

  Day 11

  462 Steps

  Day 12

  10,001 Steps

  Day 13

  13,555 Steps

  Day 14

  10,987 Steps

  Day 15

  13,001 Steps

  Day 16

  12,759 Steps

  Day 17

  10,013 Steps

  Day 18

  12,222 Steps

  Day 19

  10,307 Steps

  Day 20

  14,111 Steps

  Day 21

  10,556 Steps

  Day 22

  10,123 Steps

  Day 23

  10,642 Steps

  Day 24

  10,873 Steps

  Day 25

  4877 Steps

  Day 26

  6425 Steps

  Day 27

  17,777 Steps

  Day 28

  15,295 Steps

  Day 29

  10,232 Steps

  Day 30

  10,349 Steps

  Day 31

  10,444 Steps

  Day 32

  10,001 Steps

  Acknowledgments

  Other Books by Claire Cook

  Copyright

  Walk On By (Revisited)

  When you see me walking down the beach,

  I pick up the pace to stay out of your reach.

  Walk on by, baby, walk on by.

  Men believe

  That you’ll cry all their tears.

  But I’m relieved.

  And each time I see you,

  You break down and cry.

  Don’t stop, I’m walkin’ on by.

  Who needs it, I’m walkin’ on by.

  Cry, baby, walk on by, baby.

  A woman’s heart can be broken and blue.

  But when it comes to her mind,

  A girl knows what she’s gotta do.

  Walk on by, just walk on by.

  Day 1

  132 steps

  ON THE DAY I BECAME REDUNDANT, I BEGAN TO WALK. OKAY, not right away. First I lay in bed and savored the sound of the alarm not going off. I’d been hearing that stupid beep at the same ridiculous time pretty much every weekday morning for the entire eighteen years I’d worked at Balancing Act Shoes.

  I stretched decadently and let out a loud, self-indulgent sigh. I pictured the zillion-count Egyptian cotton sheets I’d finally get around to buying. I’d pull them up to my chin to create a cozy cocoon, then wiggle down into the feather bed I’d buy, too, a big, fluffy one made with feathers from wildly exotic free-range birds.

  I’d once had a pair of peacock earrings that came with a note saying, “Since peacocks lose their feathers naturally, no peacocks were harmed in the making of these earrings.” I’d always meant to look that up to see if it was a marketing ploy or if it was actually true. If so, then maybe I could find a peacock feather comforter. Though I suppose what would be the point of using peacock feathers in a comforter if you couldn’t see them? Perhaps I could invent a see-through comforter that let the iridescent blues and greens shimmer through. Though I guess first I’d need to come up with a zillion-count see-through Egyptian cotton.

  I closed my eyes. I flipped over onto my back and opened them again. I stared up at a serious crack, which I liked to think of as the Mason-Dixon Line of my ceiling. My seventh-grade history teacher would be proud she’d made that one stick.

  I rolled over, then back again. I kicked off my ordinary covers. On the first morning I could finally sleep in, I seemed to be more awake than I’d been at this hour in decades. Go figure.

  After a long, leisurely shower, a bowl of cereal, and an online check of the news and weather, I called Michael on his cell at 8:45 A.M. It rang twice, then cut off abruptly without going to voice mail.

  So I sent him an e-mail. “Call me when you can,” it said.

  A nanosecond later my e-mail bounced back. “Returned Mail: Permanent Fatal Errors,” it said.

  I dialed his office number. At least that voice mail picked up. “Hi, it’s me,” I said. “I seem to be having technical difficulties reaching you. But the good news is I have all the time in the world now. Anyway, call me when you get this.” I laughed what I hoped was the perfect laugh, light and sexy. “Unless, of course, you’re trying to get rid of me.”

  By 11 A.M., I’d watched enough morning TV to last me a lifetime, and I still hadn’t heard back from him. I tried to remember if we had specific plans for that night. Michael worked for the buyout company, Olympus, so we’d had to keep things on the down low. I mean, it wasn’t that big a deal. I was leaving anyway, and he’d be right behind me, so it was just a matter of time.

  After the initial army of auditors had stopped acting like nothing was going on, when everybody with half a brain knew something was obviously up at Balancing Act, Michael had been one of the first Olympus managers to come aboard. He was handsome, but not too, and exactly my age, which gave us an immediate bond in an industry that more and more was comprised of iPod-wearing recent college grads. Some of them had become friends, at least work friends, but they were still essentially children.

  Michael and I had commonality, both current and past. I was a Senior Manager of Brand Identity for Balancing Act. He was a Senior Brand Communications Manager for Olympus. Potato, potahto. The athletic shoe industry is market-driven rather than product-driven, which means, basically, that even though we don’t actually need a two-hundred-dollar pair of sneakers, we can be convinced that we do. Fads can be created, predicted, or at least quickly reacted to, and in a nutshell, that’s how Michael and I both spent our days.

  But even more important, we’d both danced to Van Morrison’s “Moondance,” gotten high to the Eagles’ “Witchy Woman,” made love to “Sweet Baby James” back when James Taylor had hair. Maybe not with each other, but still, we had the generational connection of parallel experiences, coupled with your basic boomer’s urge to do something new, fast, while there was still time.

  One of the first things he said to me was, “It’s business, baby.”

  We were sitting in the employee cafeteria, and I felt a little jolt when he called me baby. He had rich chocolate eyes and a full head of shiny brown hair without a strand of gray, which meant he probably dyed it, but who was I to talk.

  “Of course, it’s business,” I said. I gave my own recently camouflaged hair a little flip and added, “Baby.”

  He laughed. He had gorgeous white teeth, probably veneers, but so what.

  “What’s your off-the-record recommendation?” I asked.

  He leaned forward over the button-shaped table that separated us, and the arms of his suit jacket gripped his biceps. I caught the sharp, spicy smell of his cologne. Some kind of citrus and maybe a hint of sandalwood, but also something retro. Patchouli?

  “The first deal,” he said, “is always the best.”

  “So grab the VRIF and run?” I asked, partly to show off my new vocabulary. Balancing Act employees, even senior managers like me, didn’t find out we’d become the latest Olympus acquisition until the day i
t went public. Since then, the buzz had been that the way to go was to take your package during the VRIF or Voluntary Reductions in Force phase. Olympus was all about looking for redundancies and establishing synergies, code for getting rid of the departments that overlapped.

  Right now, the packages were pretty generous. I could coast along for eighteen months at full base salary, plus medical and dental. They were even throwing in outplacement services to help me figure out what to do with the rest of my life. The only thing missing was a grief counselor. And maybe a good masseuse. By the time we got to the Involuntary Reductions in Force phase, aka the IRIF, who knew what I’d be looking at.

  Michael glanced over his shoulder, then back into my eyes. “Here’s the thing, Noreen. Or do you prefer Nora?”

  “Nora,” I said, even though no one had ever called me that until this very moment. I’d been called Nor, Norry, Reeny, Beany, NoreanyBeany, even StringBeany, though I had to admit that one was a few years and pounds ago. Mostly it was just plain Noreen. Michael’s baby reeled me in, but I swallowed his Nora hook, line, and sinker.

  I forced myself to focus. “Wall Street,” he was saying, “will expect some performance from the synergy created by combining companies. The way to get performance is to streamline numbers, to create efficiencies. Human resources, finance, operations, marketing—lots of overlap. Ergo…”

  I raised an eyebrow. “Ergo?” I teased.

  He raised his eyebrow to match mine, and even though it would be another two weeks before we ended up in bed together, I think we both knew right then it was only a matter of time.

  I leaned my elbows on the table. “So, what?” I said. “I leave so you can have my job?”

  “Off the record,” he said, “I’ll probably be right behind you. I mean, take my job, please. You’d be doing me a favor. I’m just waiting till they offer the VRIF package to the Olympus employees they’ve brought in.”

  “Seriously?” I said. “You really think you’ll take it? And do what?”

  He laced his fingers together behind his head and arched back in his chair. “Let’s see. First off, I think I’d light a bonfire and burn up all my suits and ties. Then I’d chill for a while. Maybe buy a van, find me a good woman, drive cross-country.” He smiled. “Then look around for a partner, someone to start a small business with.”

  At eleven-thirty, I called Michael’s cell again. The second ring cut off midway, once more without going to voice mail. I waited, then pushed Redial. This time it cut off almost as soon as it started ringing. I sent another e-mail. It bounced back with the same fatal message. I called his office number, but when that voice mail picked up, I just hung up.

  I was seriously creeped out by now. I thought about calling someone else at work to see if maybe there was a logical explanation, like everybody in the whole building was having both cell service and mail server problems, but I couldn’t seem to make myself do it.

  I thought some more, then threw on a pair of slimming black pants and a coral V-neck top over a lightly padded, modified push-up bra pitched as a cutting-edge scientific undergarment breakthrough in subtle enhancement. A little figure-flattering never hurt, even if it was hyperbole, and if nothing else, the coral worked well with my pale skin and dark hair. The last time I’d worn it, Michael had said I looked hot. Smoking hot, come to think of it, though that was probably an overstatement, too.

  The midday drive into Boston was a lot shorter without the commuter congestion. Who knew that unemployment would be the best way to beat the traffic? Still, I had plenty of time to get a plan. I’d simply pretend I’d left one of my favorite sweaters behind and wanted to grab it before someone ran off with it. And I was in the neighborhood anyway because I was meeting a friend for lunch. And I just thought I’d poke my head in and say Hi, Michael. And he’d say he was just thinking about me, trying to remember if we had plans for dinner. I’d tilt my head and tell him if he was lucky, maybe I’d even consider cooking for him. And he’d smile and make a crack about maybe it would be safer to get takeout.

  The main lot was packed, but eventually I found a parking spot. I reached into my glove compartment for the lanyard that held my employee badge, slipped it over my head, and made for the front entrance.

  When the revolving door spilled me out into the lobby, I held up my badge for the uniformed guard.

  He waved his handheld scanner over the laminated bar code like a wand.

  I headed for the elevators, the way I had a million times before.

  “Ma’am?” he said.

  I turned. He held up his scanner. I held out my badge again.

  This time I watched. When the laser light hit the bar code, it flashed red instead of the customary green.

  We looked at each other. This was the grouchy guard, the one who never said a word and always looked like he wished he were anywhere but here. I found myself wishing I’d tried a little harder to befriend him.

  I laughed. “Well, I guess it didn’t take them long to get over me.” I gave my hair a toss. “Lucky me, I took a buyout. I just need a minute to run up and grab something I forgot.” He didn’t say anything, so I added, “A sweater. A cardigan. Black, with some nice seaming around the buttons. I’ll be back before you even start to miss me.”

  “Sorry, ma’am, I can’t let you do that. Orders.”

  I blew out a gust of air. “Just call up,” I said. “Sixth floor.” I held out my card again so he could read my name.

  He ran his finger down a list on a clipboard. “Sorry, ma’am. You’re on the No Admittance List.”

  “You’re not serious,” I said, though it was pretty obvious that he was.

  I waited. He looked up again. I met his eyes and couldn’t find even a trace of sympathy in them, so I tried to look extra pathetic, which by that point I didn’t really even have to fake.

  “Maybe you can call somebody and ask them to bring it down,” he said finally. “On your cell phone,” he added.

  “Unbelievable,” I said. I stomped across the lobby so I could have some privacy. Since I hadn’t really left a sweater behind, I decided to just cut to the chase and call Michael’s cell. Half a ring and it went dead.

  There is always that exact moment when the last shreds of denial slip away and your reality check bounces. I closed my eyes. Eventually, I opened them again. I called his office number. “You piece of shit,” I whispered to his voice mail.

  I stood there for a minute, scratching my scalp with both hands. Hard, as if I might somehow dig my way to a good idea. When that didn’t happen, I walked out, without even a glance at the guard. I kept my head up high as I walked across the parking lot, in case someone was watching from one of the windows. I found my car and climbed back into it.

  Just as I was getting ready to pull out onto the access road, I caught the purple-and-white-striped Balancing Act Employee Store awning out of the corner of my eye. I banged a right and pulled into a parking space right in front of it.

  I stopped at the first circular display I came to and grabbed a pair of our, I mean their, newest shoe, the Walk On By, in a size 8½. It was strictly a women’s model, positioned as the shoe every woman needed to walk herself away from the things that were holding her back and toward the next exciting phase of her life. Shed the Outgrown. Embrace Your Next Horizon. Walk On By.

  Even though I’d been part of the team to fabricate this hook out of thin air, I still wanted to believe in the possibility. I handed the box to the woman at the register. I held up my badge. I held my breath.

  Her scanner flashed green, and she rattled off a price that was a full 50 percent off retail.

  “Wait,” I said. I ran back to the display, grabbing all the Walk On Bys in my size. Then I sprinted around the room, scooping up whatever I could find in an 8½. Dream Walker. (You’ll Swear You’re Walking on Clouds.) Step Litely. (Do These Sneakers Make Me Look Thin?) Feng Shuoe. (New Sneakers for a New Age.) I didn’t stop until I’d built a tower of shoe boxes on the counter.

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sp; “Take a buyout?” the woman asked as she rang me up.

  I nodded.

  I gave her my credit card, and she handed me a bright purple pedometer. “On the house,” she said. “It’s the least Balancing Act can do for you.”

  “Thanks,” I said. I hooked it onto my waistband, and that’s when I started to walk.

  Day 2

  54 steps

  UGH.

  Day 3

  28 steps

  SO THIS IS ROCK BOTTOM.

  Day 4

  17 steps

  NO, THIS IS.

  Day 5

  11,464 steps

  I’D FINALLY PEELED OFF THE STAINED T-SHIRT AND BAGGY sweatpants I’d been wearing for days, taken a shower, and zapped a frozen breakfast burrito. Up until then, all I’d managed to do was sleep, devour several pints of Ben & Jerry’s Chunky Monkey, go to the bathroom, and reset my pedometer daily. It was a pretty fancy pedometer, with seven days’ worth of record-keeping built in. So far, my four-day total was 231 steps, or .1 miles, which didn’t seem much more promising than the rest of my stupid life.

  Since I didn’t think I could sink much lower into the depths of despair, I’d taken stock after I toweled off. First I stepped on the scale, something I’d been avoiding since my last checkup. Yikes. It was as if a small person, or at least a small animal, had jumped up on there with me. I slid my heels back to the edge of the scale and leaned back as far as I could. I lost two pounds, but I knew it was only a sleight of scale.